Out with the old, in the with new ... herro 2010.

Question -- You know when you've had too good a night to sleep because your head won't stop spinning and you feel like you're gonna hurl from all the drinks and noms you'd destroyed during the night, but can't recall exactly how much and what it was you'd obliterated (I taste Cognac...fml)? Yeah bwoi, that's what's up. Happy New Year everyone. :)

Perhaps it would've been more sentimental to reflect upon the year on its last day, but celebrations tend to get in the way :). This is what January 1st is for though .... no better time to look back than when you're lying half dead in your bed with the worst hangover of life/still drunk, trying to put pieces together from the previous night and wondering where the HELL that 'vintage', naked, hairy looking mans -- who is now your phone wallpaper btw -- came from. Ohhhh right .... a deck of Chippendales cards circa 1986 ..... I think I saw your dad. Har har jk ;)! Needless to say, it was a very, very, good night.

Speaking for myself ... when asked ('acks-ed lololol) about my year, the reflex is usually to nod my head in a rare, matter-of-fact manner with a messed up expression on my face (story of my life) before lifting my very broad shoulders and answering with a simple, 'not bad', then finishing with a prolonged psycho bitch smile 8). Totally hot.

No offense, but let's call a spade a spade. People asking are never really interested.

X: "Oh hey Bon, how was your year?"

Me: *nod* *face* "Not ba...."

X: "That's so awesome! But hey listen can you do me a favour and do this and this for me? I GTG YOU'RE THE BEST PEACE OUT!"

Me: .......... Fail.

Hahahaha jk .... I am sure that is just the story of my life. FML.

2009 -- I can't even remember it already. But thanks to facebook and the huge role it plays in my life, tracing back is as easy as a wall post/photo album/status update away! Afterall, you know what they say -- 'It ain't official 'til it's Facebook official!' Har har har. So uh yeah, new year's resolution: get a life. 8)

2009 was a tough one but nevertheless a good one. All those times agonizing over weekly midterms, ridiculous final schedules, ugly grad photos, life planning, grad school apps, the monster that is bio 290 and quality time spent in cubicles thinking we'd never see the light of day again ... were NOTHING compared to all the wild times at Lucy's, Ceeps, Shoemaker's class, jumping out of plane, summer times, sloppy birthdays, getting fit then fat then fit again of course (harhar), making new friends, bonding with the old etc etc. All in all, a definite year of growth. Precursor to the rest of our lives .... eek!

As 2010 is, well, here ... I wish for myself and everyone else nothing but happiness (lame), seriousness, total wildness, and swine-lessness aka MORE OF LAST YEAR PLEASE (minus eye twitches and of course not if you were, in fact, plagued with the swine) =)=)=). But most importantly to grads, I wish that we hear soon of our acceptance to grad school (come onnnn Althouse) because we are obviously hot shit and there is no reason for them to need that much, if any, time at all. We are clearly the right choice, bros. And for those who still don't know what they wanna do with their lives ...... I wish you all the luck in the world with Tova. And please remember to make your charts.

That is all.

Peace. Love. Asian.

Welcome 2010.

The pictures make it real.

(8) As we go on ... we remember .... all the times we've had together ...(8) VITAMIN C FTW!!!!

Grades 6, 8, 12, and now 4th year of uni . . . that's a lot of freaking milestones. I originally re-downloaded this song for shits and giggles but it appears as if I am still forever lame (surprise surprise) because i am STILL choking back soft, soft sobs everytime I hear it. Don't even lie to yourself, you know you are too.

Like everyone else, I've been in denial about this whole graduation shenanigan -- that is until we got the grad photos back. Oh it's happening alright. If these pics were reflections of my university experiences, then it very well seems as if my 4 years were filled with perspiration, discomfort, bad hair, waves of smelly smelly poo (london = farmland, makes sense), and short/'nuff mans'/cleavage-spilling friends .... hmmm sounds about right. YEE-HAW. Welcome to my life.

The thought of being done school is mind-numbingly scary. I mean, shoot, being a teacher's pet is all I've ever known!! The possibility of having my own little suck-ups soontimes is just too grown-up for me to handle .... SHIVERS.

I know we've graduated a bunch of times, each time so pumped to march out in uniform to a less than impressive band playing 'pomp and circumstance' ..... but this time feels especially different (like I've said every other time, but that's the way life should be!). A little perplexed, a little worried, and a hell of a lot of uncertainties. Nom nom nom.

For instance, it'd be pretty sweet if you could help answer these questions for me:

- Where do I go from here?

- Teacher's college/masters/take a year off to work in foreign lands next year?!

- Is it even possible to live a fulfilling life without Lucy's or random encounters with Glen Belfry?!

- Am I gonna see your fug faces again? Ever???

And most importantly .... Where the eff is my future husband whom I should have met by now and start to have gorgeous mixed babies with in a few years?! HUH?!

Questions questions questions. None of which I can answer ... GREAT.

One thing I do know, however, is that .... life is a MYSTÈRE and that's what makes it so freaking exciting. I've never been one to stick to plans made ahead of time, thanks to my impulsive nature, so who knows what may be in store!

Just remember ... it doesn't matter what you do or where you end up as long as ....

..... "Wherever you go, go with all your heart" ♥

[words of wisdom passed along by none other than the 'queen of quotes' herself ;)]

AMEN SISTA!

"I am thankful for .... "

Two nights ago, I stumbled upon my gr 6 journals and proceeded to let this blast from the past consume my sleep time almost entirely. One of my favourite teachers in the world, Mrs. Gray, had made us use the heading, "I am thankful for ...", to write down one thing we were grateful for each and everyday before our actual journal entries. What a brilliant idea. Though mine went along the lines of "I am thankful for playing DDR last night or having 2 fruit rollups for snack today or getting straight A+'s on my last report card (RECOGNIZE hahaha)" .... it was a starting point to get us youngin's to begin exercising our appreciative juices (this sounds way dirtier than intended). Like they say, 'put a little gratitude in your attitude, son!' Now looking back, I'm really glad she made us do that even though half the things i wrote were absolute kaka bs ("I am thankful for this pencil i am writing with" wtf?!? i reallllly doubt i was that happy with it). And this is what I think being a successful teacher is all about -- implementing and enforcing important values into the students' childhood/adolescent years despite their half-assed desires to understand/care about/translate it at the time. 10 years down the road, they will look back at it, realize its significance and holler with the utmost appreciation, "daaang that was a serious teacher right there." But we will hang on to the teacher talk for now -- maybe until after my applications for teacher's college are done ;)!

Contrary to my aunt's beliefs, I do not agree with the fact that we have nothing to be thankful for this year. Indeed, it's been a tough one. Maybe it's my over-optimistic nature, but we just have to extract the positives from the situations. After all, what's done is done and really, what other choice do you have but to move on?

On my 21st thanksgiving day, I say HERRRO and 'GIVE THANKS' for the following:

+ Good health

This year has proven especially how important it is to have a healthy body. If you don't have your health, you don't have anything.

+ Family

Big families always call for big troubles. But when serious shit goes down, none of these matter anymore. Though we're spread throughout the world, we managed to pull together as a unit and tough out the worst times of our lives. It sucked but now we're closer than ever. As it always is, you win some and you lose some .... just hoping this victory outweighs the losses by a million and some.

+ Education

Incredibly thankful for the chance to be able to pursue 'higher education' and to do it away from home. These few years have taught me too much and I cannot continue talking about this without realizing that it's my last year. Hence, this reflection cannot continue at the moment as this big face will soon begin to bawl.

And of course most importantly ....

+ bl.ejm.nq.cm.pcb.ml.jl.

"Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along." ...... I've got more than one ♥. and yes, i totally just quoted BRIDE WARS AKA BEST MOVIE EVA (you love it).

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

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These weeks are passing by insanely quickly ... holay! I guess that's a good thing though, means I'm keeping busy instead of being a lazy pile and hopefully being productive at the same time (YEAH RIGHT). Mmmkay ... so I guess productivity levels this week were not quite up to par, school-wise. But I was, however, being productive in other areas of my life ... sayyyyy... my social life hahah! Maybe a little too productive in that area ONLY BC shit was going down. I'm terrible, I know. Just had to get it all out before I hibernate for the next three weeks. Ooooh it's about to get sooo stream, son. (Ps. I don't think I've made it through a post without saying 'stream' since I started this blogging business hahaha. Seriously, something stream always happens. Told you, way of life.)

I am still trying to learn to enjoy my mondays and wednesdays. Mostly because I begin my days at 8:30am with a sweet German prof saying things I cannot comprehend (German accents + attempted jokes + early mornings = wow) and end with bio labs on both days at 4:30pm and 5:30pm. Never thought I'd have to do another bio lab course after first year but of course it comes back around and bites me in the ass in my last and final year (maybs). At least we don't have anymore labs that include sitting around and watching fish school from side to side for 3 hours though! That was a definite winner.

Tues - NO CLASSES aka fav day of life! In theory, they should be my most productive days but that never seems to be the case. More like, I have 24 hours to catch up but I would rather only spend 3 of those doing some mindless readings and the rest of the time doing something more exciting. Like this week, tuna and i paid exeter a visit to see her chiro and of course got lost a few times. ROAD TRIP :). People are seriously nice in these small towns ... so nice they think London ppl are rude! Coming from scarborough though, london peeps are like saints to us. And the small towners .... well they're just too good to be true!

Thurs - KINSANITY! Kin pubcrawl -- predrank/ceeps/frog/jim bobs/jack's. Last year i only made it to jack's cuz of child lit exam and bc i was soft and didn't think it was gonna be my scene. Glad i went this year! Good people, good times, bad memory hahah. The best part of it all though was definitely the next morning, watching everyone come into class with death written all over their faces. After 4 years -- seasoned pros. However, it should be noted that answering questions while hungthefrickover/still drunk is probs not the best idear ....

Prof: "So what did the last study conclude?"

J: "Umm it concluded that blood flow was BISEXUAL."

*Kin students die, phys/pharm kids offended*

Prof: ".... you mean BIDIRECTIONAL?!"

J: "I'M STILL DRUNK"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. You make my freaking life son!!!!!! I LOVE KIN!!!

Even though we felt like absolute ass the next day, still made it out to erica's birthday. You're lucky we love you!!! Did not drink that much and hence I was the most sober i've ever been at a bar. Shocking. Still fun times though you sexy bitch!! WAY TO DANCE ON THE RANDOM GUYS' TABLE!!! Hahaha u da u da best.

Mantis -- Happy birthday I love you. Owe you please don't be angry ♥.

LOOKING FORWARD TO:

- 1st veebs game tmr ... super comp yayyy i want those purple shirts again!!!!

- studying and working my tailfeather off for the next few weeks :D

- GRAD PHOTOS!!!! face + hair ... WORK WITH ME!!!

- i would say homecoming ... but partying just does not excite me right now hahaha SOFT.

PS. i really should not have time for television but HOW AMAZING WAS HOUSE THIS WEEK!!!

Summa summa .... WINTA?!!?

Usually, the AC in our house [london] is blasting like a mother regardless of the weather outside. Don't yell at me, I don't operate the system. One morning, I woke up and it was not only warm, but HOT. I figured the AC must've finally broken down or something due to overuse. The sun outside was beaming in ma fayce at 715am so just as I'd made it through an entire summer without pants, I decided to throw on my usual short shorts with a long tee, thinking it'd be sufficient enough to get me through the day. [Side note: i hate pants so much, they are so constricting to my bulging chuck norris thighs]. After making the last minute scrambles before rushing out late, I race out the door only to get KNOCKED back in by a mass of arctic air ..... BAM! HERRRRRRO WINTER!!! It's like mother nature decided that fall fashion was totally unnecessary this year [!!!!!] and therefore skipped right over to winter jackets and Uggs. Wait -- some girl busted out her uggs with long socks at the football game last weekend in the scorching sun, so I guess it was meant for all seasons. My bad. Well you know what, *FIST CLASH* UHHHHHH!! RUDE GYAL gimme back my fall!!! Seriously though, mass cold this week. Hope all you sickos [ha ha] are adequately drugged up and getting better in no time!!!

School needs not to be mentioned again because I anticipate it to remain at the same high-voltaged capacity the whole year and thus you guys will just be hearing the same thing over and over again .... yaaay! Therefore if thou art not seeking to dig thyselves [thine selves?! yourselves?!!? hahah] a grave, ask me about the weather instead -- nvm -- the upcoming chinese holidays or something, as a conversation opener if ya must hahaha! I'm still alive though after one week so that's a good sign! However, sudden increases in workload/excitement, especially in big bulks, throw me off my game a little. A maintenance period starts up as I try to digest and sort everything out. This process leads to unusual spurts of quietness and the superhuman ability to carry out THE most less-than-interesting conversations EVER [they are actually excruciatingly painful....i apologize to those who have had to experience it hahah]. So pardon me if I've been a little stand-off-ish ..... the asian mind is just trying to work its magic behind this large, expressionless fayce. Thanks to my planner though, my life is starting to straighten out a bit ... tang q yiu !!

After getting lost a billion times thanks to Keith's wonderful directions to loo [haha kidding it wasn't your fault that I got pwned by exits 278A AND B!], finally got there to pick up the froshie cuz and bighead. Glad she's adapting well cuz first year was kind of a bitch. Yeah, I was lame. BUT -- you live and you learn. If it's anything I've taken from it, it's that sometimes you just gotta let loose, take initiative, get into trouble, and stop going home in the middle of the week [don't hate]. And when you've successfully made it through the sift without flunking outta your program, you'll be able to wallrush thru anything that stands your way in the future. Plus, she's already got her rice cooker hooked up and running .... way ahead of the game son!!

Happy early birthday to my favourite boys in the fam -- baby Jonathan [turning 3!!!!!] & Adrian [13] this weekend ♥ ♥!!! Where has time gone ... seriously?!?!? Things are about to get wild.

Herrrrro 4th year..!

Okay, so it's been 2 days of classes and I am already completely up-my-bum overwhelmed with everything. Anyone else feel that way?? Any takers? No? Just me? Breathe. Nothing like starting the year knowing I've got 3 midterms and a proposal due all in the same week in less than a month WOOT WOOT! Breathe. I am anticipating the hemi-facial spasms aka the infamous eye twitches to make a comeback soontimes and I'm sure you all are as well ... jerks! Great thing about being in the last year (hopefully!), though, is that we're actually taking classes we care about ... for the most part anyway .... when we're not busy taking over second year kin classes to fulfill the last graduating requirements hahah. The down side -- workload is proportional to biomech last year x4. Oh yeah baby! Can you sense my enthusiasm?!!?? Hahaha ... I've been a little shaky (a lot) but I think I just need to whip out all the time management skills I've gots that have long rusted away! Grad school applications also just around the corner. BREATHE FOR SERIOUS! Trying to 'reframe' the situation, as my friend would say, and just getting'er done! If you don't see/hear from me for the next term, I have probably isolated myself in a cubicle far from you and have even gone to the extreme measures of turning off wireless internet and my cell phone. bahahah YEAH RIGHT. Oh em gee I am not gonna have any friends. Please don't leave me.

IN OTHER NEWS -- it's been awesome to be back. Funtimes catching up with everyone, getting silly, and seeing who's the most tanned/burnt from the summa summa rayz (i might take that one)! Getting back into the routine of things -- wake up at the crack of dawn, get dropkicked in the butttt at spin by the one and only, nom nom, class, nom nom again during classes 1 2 3 & 4 lolol, lucy's, major studyfest at a starbucks near you. Yaaaayyy! I'm excited for this year though. Despite all the work, it's gonna be good -- making new friends, bonding with the old, and many more shenannnnigannsss to come!

Hope you kiddies are doing well and that you're not missing me too much. It's a painful process, I know. I have that effect on people sometimes. Hahahahh who am i?!?! Miss all your FAYCES

Wrappin' it up summer '09

It's that time of the year again. Hate, hate, hate. Did not even realize that it had crept up on me until my rude gyal sidekick left back to guelph today [feeling special yet?!?! jajaja! miss your fucking fayce already son!] & a few 'last dates' had been set before I peace out back to Londy.

After 4 months of home food, summer adventures and more schooling, it's time to kiss the short-lived rays goodbye and prepare for the new school year. Ai ai ai. Feelings? Mixed. EXCITED, yet nervous at the same time (from what I've heard though, I'm not the only one so PHEW). Mostly because I am not yet ready to get smoked in the FAYCE again by all these silly courses. However if it's one thing I've realized this summer, it's definitely that I would much, MUCH rather be in school than be in the work force so I'm excited to learn!! What I'm NOT looking forward to, though, are applications for grad school FMLFMLFMLFML. WOO-SAAA BRING IT ON!!!

Minus a few bumps in the road, this summer has been pretty sweet. In fact, I think it may have been the best one yet -- skydiving, tattoo, vball, canfit, beach times, party times, bananagram times, mass nom nom times, etc etc. Let's just say, it's been STREAM. Stream is what we like ... it's how we live STEUPS! hahaha. However, it's mostly been a fantastical summer because I got to destress from last year's insanity and spend some serious quality timez catching up with friends and family I don't see a lot of during the school year. I've missed you guys so much mang.

It's been amazing to see how everyone has changed and 'grown' in just a year. Not to mention, it's interesting to see how we're all unfolding with age and 'maturity' lolol. We would have never guessed that Ashez and Wavez would have the balls to jump out of a plane, or that Breezey would wanna become an occupational therapist to HELP PPL LOLOL, or that Flamez would potentially be getting married before most of us do (HAHAHA LOVE YOU), or or or . Despite everything else, I'm glad that we've become the people that we are and after all these years, still remain to be the same amazing rude gyalz. Keepin' it dynamiK fo sho! Though I would've liked to see certain individuals more, it is what it is and I guess we just gotta be patient. It will be so hard to part ways again, but with the large amounts of texts/fb msgs/threads/emails we send each other on the daily, I'm sure we wouldn't even notice that we're miles apart. Love your fayces!

Reading through my journal entries throughout the summer (yeah, i have a diary and write about my feelings okay I'M SOULFUL LIKE THAT DON'T HATE), i was a little spooked because I didn't even recognize myself anymore, hahah not in a bad way though! Not that you would ever get a hold of it, but I am sure that if somehow you did it wouldn't even matter because it would not sound like me anyway lolol! And to think that I have not changed a bit from high school days or even just a year ago .... WRONG! Fact of the matter is -- I have grown up, I want different things ... MORE things ... while at the same time having learned to let go of a lot of others and to just breathe and enjoy the moment. Holler. Not everything has to make sense all the time, but as long as you keep your head straight and your eye on the prize, you'll get there eventually. The power of positive thinking baby ... INCREDULOUS. Play it by year, I guess!

Fourth year ... bring it on! Teacher's college .... bring it on! Please just love me and take me and let me corrupt .... i mean 'instill knowledge' .... into the minds of kids from japan/africa/china/paraguay/wherever teaching abroad takes me!!!!!